Havin It All....2mySelf

31st December 2004

thought i wouldnt type today..

i have alot on my mind right now...n its just building up ...up in mythroat....like i'm either gonna burst into laughter...or brake down n cry...

i blame it on my PMS...its due soon...

i'm feeling vulnarable, lost, upset n
i can't help it...
and i'm a bit craving for attention...(what is wrong wit me 2day!!!!)...

just now i caught myself wonderin whylar i'm not settling down yet...(aiyo...crazy!)
i'm a farCry to even b in a relationship....
come to think of it...
i was only in one..
n it wasn't close to what i imagine...

WonderinOff this normal track...i ponder...

how would it be
what am i waiting to see?

to b in one would b ( i imagined)
wit one that is close...but b not too upclose...
wit someOne nice....and of sweet n spice...
wit someOne cute...that gives me an acute...
wit ruffEdge n distortion... cause two n two will make such a notion ...

maybe its the wind..
or those thoughts that is makin me spin...
such a sucker to give in...
wanting so bad to cave in...

Lyin lazy Feelin easy...
just some lirics dat sound so cheessy...
such a crap...feelin so lousy...
wish i had One to feel cosy...

(here i go all desperate again....yissssh)

maybe i'll love an elf...
and put my story at the back of that shelf...
while the month of this twelve..
i'm havin it all....all 2Myself.....

(so wanna just go back n bury myself under those redSheets of mine n stay there...mmmm....)

oh yeah..
eppyNuYer ait!
peace